Landslide

Tonight has been, internally, intense.  I ended up having a quiet night at home in my PJ shorts and comfy clothes early and spent time with the roomie which illicited some very intense, deep psychological-in-nature conversation about some issues and roadblocks each of us have right now that are standing in the way between us and further emotional and spiritual and psychological growth and self-awareness.  And me,being the good little codependent I am, immediately hopped up and switched into "Mr Fix It Mode" because part of what's wrong with me is that I get validation off of helping you fix your problems, so I get to ignore myself and what's wrong with me.  Thus, I embarked on what I've been doing for the last few hours, which is working on projects and solutions that will benefit K_____ as well as myself in goals we each have individually and in a shared sense.

But now that I've crossed over into "solution" mode, I can't turn it off, and I have a million different ideas and solutions and things I know I need to and can do to provide remedies and solutions to situations or roadblocks....I just can't execute them all at the same time, or right now for that matter at 2:39 in the morning.  So I'm having to settle for taking extensive notes and writing everything down in battle/strategy plan format for now, and just keep in mind that tomorrow is another day filled with a whole new opportunity to make the most out of your day and tackle as much as you can and are willing, or let countless opportunities pass you by if you don't take the reins, take control, and be the writer of your own goddamn story, instead of just sitting in a pool of laziness and apathy and procrastination and watching shit come and go and wonder where the hell you were during all of it.