So I've created somewhat of a dilemma all of my own making. You see, about a month ago, I decided to make a particular meeting my "home group" meeting. It was the Sunday Morning Meeting, Sundays at 9:30 AM. It's an excellent meeting with LOTS of recovery and plenty of people with tons of clean time there (most in double digits). It also just so happens to be the home group of my now sponsor. Well making the decision to join that group was all fine and good, but now there's just one slight problem that has presented itself.
I haven't shown up or attended that meeting for over 3 weeks since joining.
I was supposed to go today and meet up with T___ (my sponor) but I slept right through my alarm and on through the morning until;it was time for my mom to pick me up to take me grocery shopping and for us to have lunch. I've tried calling my sponsor just to check in but he didn't answer when I called, but I already know I'm going to get an earful and that I'm going to hear something along the lines of I'm not making a big or substantial enough of an effort to chase my recovery or that I'm doing a piss poor job in recovery or some bullshit like that.
Oh well. I chose this guy because he always has told me what I needed to hear, not what I wanted to hear, and 9 times out of 10 always said something that struck a nerve and pissed me off. So this will just probably end up being one of those times when I'm reminded why I picked him in the first place.
Oh, and ps, there is not one fuck given that it is Super Bowl Sunday. I'm probably going to take a nap here shortly and kick off was 20 minutes ago. #sportsfail
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