Despite last night being a Friday night and the start of the weekend, I'm pretty impressed with myself that I went to bed at a pseudo-reasonable hour woke up when I did this morning because for the past couple of weeks I've slept in past 10 or 11 in the morning. But now that I'm up on time, I'm going to be able to make it to the men's stag meeting at 3M Club at 10:30 so I've gotta make this a quick check in before I get ready and bounce.
Had a great night with K_____ last night. We had a girls' night out doing some shopping, going out to dinner, then came back to the apartment and I stepped up my "man" game and helped assemble her bed. I used tools and everything! I felt so butch. After that, I farted around on my lap top for a while and worked on a couple projects and then decided to call it quits and went to join D______ in bed and went to sleep, where he is still snoozing away. I'm conflicted on what to do about this situation. I definitely have feelings for the kid, but am unsure of if he's right for me due to the gap in certain areas of our lives, such as structure, discipline, level of responsibilities just to name a few. I'm still operating on a "one day at a time" basis with the whole situation and am just taking each moment as it comes and dealing with it as it happens. Because if I don't and start analyzing it too much, I'm going to over think the whole fucking thing to death and manifest some self-fulfilling prophecy of failure and doom that'll be entirely my fault and won't even allow him and I to have a fair shot at making this work. So basically I'm trying to my best to step back and let things happen as they are going to happen and not finger fuck the situation to death with my obsessive thoughts or my own self-will. Whenever I've adopted that attitude, it usually works out for the best and keeps me from going completely insane within my own head.
Anyway, that's it for now. Gotta get dressed and head out. Stay tuned folks.
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