Staying in the present and enjoying what is

So after some advice from a friend about current circumstances with somebody in my life, as well as talking about it with K_____ I've adopted a new thought approach to the current situation and arrangement between D_____ and I.  I'm not placing any expectations on the relationship or on what should happen or what I think is going to happen.  I'm just going to transition into recovery mode and take it one day at a time, one minute at a time, and enjoy what IS right now, and if it works out:  great.  If it doesn't, then it wasn't meant to be and I can still break things off amicably and maturely without something blowing up in a nuclear explosion with tons of drama and heart ache.  I'm just basically going to enjoy the ride while it lasts, and if/when it comes to a stop, that just means it wasn't in God and the Universe's plan for us to remain together on that level and that we're destined for separate paths.  And just even switching into that mindset has alleviated tons of stress and anxiety because I'm no longer stressing or obsessing over stupid, mundane things or things I have no control over.  I caught myself falling into my old, obsessive, codependent behaviors lately and it was masking me crazy and in the end I realized it was all over stuff I couldn't control but was trying to control or influence or bend to my whim.  And my whims are all unrealistic, selfish, self-centered, and self-destructive, as we all know this being true to all addicts.  Don't get me wrong, there are plenty of valid points I could list off about him and his behavior that are valid points that I think anybody might/would most likely be irritated with.  But he is just being himself and going about living each day how he normally would, so I'm not going to fault him on him just being himself.  I needed to just inject myself with bigger doses of tolerance and patience and empathy instead of being so impatient, insensitive, and judgmental.

Anyway, time to jet, going to a 2:30 meeting to get some recovery in for the day.  More later.
Stay tuned folks.