Dry

Why am I so anxious?  And then it hits me.  I'm not anxious, I'm lonely. And I'm lonely in some horribly deep way and for a flash of an instant, I can see just how lonely, and how deep this feeling runs.  And it scares the shit out of me to be so lonely because it seems catastrophic -- seeing the car just as it hits you.  But then all of a sudden, that feeling is gone and I'm blank.  So it's like a door quickly opened, just a crack, to show me what a mess I was inside.  But not enough to really stare for long and absorb all the details.  Just enough to know the room needed some major spring cleaning.

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This will be my 2nd read of this book, and for some reason I think I'm going to really really appreciate and let this book sink in a lot more than I did the first time I read it. 

<3 this book