You Ready for a Fight?

some of the hardest and most difficult things to deal with and even think about, are, sometimes, the things that are most worth fighting for.

there are 2 areas in my life right now where this applies.  one of them is in the whole recovery aspect.  and that is something i will not compromise on.  i see it is possible, and i see myself on that path. and i like it.  and i'm willing to fight for that.

the other is somebody specific.  and i am willing to fight for him too. (not like actually physically fighting somebody), but i know this is going to be difficult, and there is the possibility that i may fail, but that's a chance i'm going to take.

and i am going to fight for you.  because i still miss you every day.  and there's a lot of trust to reestablish, and a lot of conversations to have over and a lot of things to re-establish and new memories to make, and bonds between us to mend as well as to others in your life that i've hurt, but i will take it all head on.   it's all worth it.

one can only hope this isn't a futile fight i'm going to be undertaking.  but like i said, i'll be patient.  i have control over me at all times.  and that has to be enough