Drastic

Yes, drastic.  That's the only word that comes to mind if you were to ask me to describe my life's current circumstances as they stand today compared to how things were potentially looking 2 or 3 weeks ago.  2 or 3 weeks ago, I had been so continually beat down from unfortunate events and bad luck and just shitty occurrences that I was at the point where I was actually practicing a behavior I learned in recovery:  setting a boundary.  But I was setting it with God and the Universe.  At a meeting one day, I quite loudly and vehemently stated that if my luck didn't start to change soon, that if some good stuff didn't start coming my way to even out the outpouring of bad stuff that had been washing over me, that I was going to basically flip God, everyone I know, and my life the middle finger and throw in the towel and take my own life.  I've heard it said by countless addicts in meetings that at one point they got so miserable with their lives that they wanted to end  it but they were too coward or chicken shit to actually go through it.  Well guess what motherfuckers.  I'm that one addict that ISN'T scared to go that far.  I've tried three times in the past and the only reason I'm alive today after those attempts were because there were people close at hand that were able to call for help in saving my miserable life.  But I digress; the point is, I set a boundary.....with God.  I basically said "change or improve this shit sandwich you've been giving me, or I quit."
And wouldn't you know it, since that day, things have been shifting and reshaping and morphing in form and circumstances that today, 3 weeks later, I'm no longer suicidal.  In fact, I'm far from it.  I have so much on my plate right now that it's overflowing and I'm almost too overwhelmed to handle it all because there's so much up in the air right now and I have no idea which direction I should take as it pertains to certain things and I'm scared I might make the wrong move or accidentally misstep and end up fumbling up an opportunity (or opportunities) that could very well prove to be total game changers for me and my life.  I know all of this as you are reading it is very vague and I'm leaving the main core details out because I don't want to jinx anything that could potentially be on the table right now, so you'll just have to trust me when I say that all the things that are up in the air right now, they're all really amazing things that could very well change my life and launch me into a new state of living or a new stage of my life or a new stage of a new found career in a new found business that I would be helping build from the ground up.  So yeah I'm a little anxious and at times overwhelmed inside my own thoughts, but mostly I'm hopeful and optimistic and excited for what may come to fruition from these potential futures.

What I CAN divulge details about though is my living situation and the whole hunt for a roommate drama that had been going on.  After one total dud from some 24 yr old faggot who thought he was an expert in life already and that he just was smarter and wiser than me and nobody else has suffered as much as he has (for those of you that know me I know you are all laughing at the fact that you know I couldn't even take this kid seriously for a second), it seemed as though my perfect roommate that would appear and save the day was not going to, actually, appear at all and no day would be saved and I would be forced to move.

And then along comes a little thing called The Universe, or sometimes The Plan, or sometimes just God.  You know, that thing.  Because in my lap he drops someone that was in my life the entire time, we just didn';t know the other's circumstances were what they were until we started doing the math and realized...we were a perfect match.  My good ol' road dawg and partner in crime K_____.  I don't think a more perfect match could've been made.  After having tried living with other gay men, I realized that I just couldn't do it.  I'm bitch enough for one household, we don't need 2 conflicting forces of cuntiness struggling for dominance in the same house, so I think my girl and I are going to complement each other nicely in this new living arrangement.  2016 is going to be quite the interesting and action-packed year I can tell you that much.

Stay tuned.