So some pretty significant and serious events have happened over the last 48 hours, but none of them happened out of the blue. There was definitely a culmination effect here as many little things had all added up to complete the picture I was faced with yesterday, which I finally put my foot down, set a boundary, and put an end to and altered the course of events that, without a doubt, would have eventually taken place at one point or another. I don't want to get into too specific detail as it would , most likely, give away hints as to who I am speaking of or details of my recent behaviors and vices that I choose not to divulge on here, but long story short, I had unknowingly and naively signed up for a situation that, inadvertently, put me, my freedom, my safety, and my home in direct danger of something going catastrophically wrong and could've potentially resulted in me going to jail or prison for a very long time. I was completely oblivious to all of this because, as I said before, it was a culmination of several little things here and there and went by my radar as seemingly common place and that nothing was wrong that, ultimately, built up to be its own monster of a situation that required dealing with. And it wouldn't have been dealt with, I'd probably still be in this situation, and, down the road, I probably would've found myself in handcuffs if it hadn't been for somebody I met yesterday by sheer chance out of nowhere that entered my life like some angel descending from heaven, providing insight and truths and mystery-revealing facts and revelations about what was going on around me and even more things about myself that I had never and would never have stopped to take the time to ask myself. Basically, this bitch told me about myself yesterday, but in such a gentle, loving way that I heard everything he had to say, and processed every single word of it, and knew a change had to be made immediately, and that action was required. And action was taken....it was not received well and I am less one friend as a result, but when looking at the big picture and what this friend had me involved in, it's blatantly obvious that this person did not have my best interests at heart and those are exactly the type of people I DON'T want in my life today.
But this knight in shining armor does. I'm not quite sure what to make of him yet. Or, after a very lengthy and emotionally charged conversation yesterday regarding reasons we're each so closed off, I'm not also what to make sure of us. But if my assumptions are correct, I believe we may be on the same page.....if not the same page, then at least somewhere in the same book. We just have to find a way to meet up with each other along the way. That's all for now, but one absolute fact I can state about him is this:
He is absolutely jaw-droppingly amazing and like an angel sent from God.
Stay tuned
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