Made it successfully through day one without getting high, pretty much slept all day. Which is to be expected from your body coming off meth. It's dropping out of warp speed (no pun intended) and returning to normal so the crash lasts a couple days and you feel like you can't get enough sleep. Like last night I slept almost 12 hours straight and I feel like I could go right back to sleep. But I'm going to a meeting at 10:30, my first since making my big decision to get back on the NA bandwagon, and I'm already embarrassed at having to say that I'm coming back from a relapse. Like I'm going to get a collective eye roll from everyone in the room and have them all say "...again? really?" So not really looking forward to that. But it'll be a humbling experience I'm sure.
I talked with my sponsor last night and he said he had had the chance to read my last entry, which, if you haven't read it yet, you should go back and read because I disclosed EVERYTHING that's been going with me in the past week or so and shed light on all the secrets I'd been keeping and got honest about somethings that I hadn't told anybody. And because my sponsor is as amazing as he is, he took it all in stride and didn't reject me / fire me like I thought he was going to. That man has the patience and forgiveness of a saint because he refuses to give up on me.
Gotta jet, my ride for the 10:30 meeting is here. More later. Stay tuned.
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