So in my last post I talked about how I had acted out in some seriously sick, self-centered, and downright monsterous ways and that I needed to do some damage control to make amends to the person I had wronged. Well, I sure as shit did some damage this time because this person refuses to talk to me right now, won't take any of my calls or answer my texts, and it's driving me crazy because all I want to do is apologize and own up to what I did. I have to take them and their feelings into consideration though because just because I may be in a place to apologize and make amends doesn't mean that this person is in a place where they're willing./ready to listen. So the ball is in their court and I guess I just have to wait until they're ready. Which, as anyone reading this that knows me will know, patience isn't one of my strong points.
Also, I'm still really trying to get into acceptance over the fact that I am going to be moving (AGAIN). I really don't want to leave the place that I'm at now; I love it here, I love my apartment, I love the location. But logically and financially, the benefits from moving to this new place I'm going to make a lot of sense and I have to do it. I should be packing and getting stuff organized, but I keep putting it off because I guess I'm still trying to hold on to this place as long as I can.
Overall, I'm still unhappy, still in a negative mind frame, and am feeling like shit for how I've been acting lately. Blah.
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