Abscess

This abscess on my arm is really starting to bother me.  It's starting to turn red and it hurts and is really sore.  It's my own damn fault and that's the risk I took when I decided to slam so I have no one to blame or be upset with but myself.

I also still haven't been to a meeting.  I was going to try to go to Not High at Noon today but my friend asked me if I could help him and his mom move today so I agreed to help because it will provide me with an opportunity to be of service and get out of myself and my own head.  I still need to get to a meeting ASAP though.  Not so much for the chance to share where I'm at, but to have interaction and relation with other addicts in recovery.  After not having been to a meeting in 2 weeks, I can feel the effect it's having on me:  I'm completely self-obsessed, impatient, isolated, and feel like I'm totally alone and I know that I can't recover and maintain recovery alone.  I need other people, I need support, I need identification, empathy, and relation.  Self-will alone will only prove to drive me further into isolation and insanity.

I can't do this alone.