is this a fucking joke? is blackberry/AT&T really fucking up or are you doing this? because i'm getting every single email from you from conversations we've had over the last few months re-sent to my phone like i'm getting them for the first time.
it's been happening periodically every day and i'll get 2 or 3 of them at a time. and i'm trying to do the "New Moon"....doing everything in my power to act as if you were never there, but then i get this, and see us talking and i'm fucking broken all over again.
there are no words powerful enough in any language to convey how much pain I am in. not because of selfish reasons "oh he's hurting me" crap like that...but because i made you feel exactly the sheer loss and hopelessness and misery i'm completely enveloped in right now. that...is enough to make me want to kill myself.
i'm so sorry
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