the original entry that i had in this post, was only public for maybe 2 seconds...and i realized it was very selfish of me to broadcast it. so i deleted it. and now i'm not sure if it was the right thing to do. all i know is i said i would disappear and i'm trying my hardest to stick to that for him.
today...actually this whole weekend was not too bad. mom said something to me today that made me cry. it was a good cry though. just what she said and how she said it was really encapsulating of the love that is still there. even after everything i put her through, the money i stole, and the lies i told her...she still said what she said today. i just couldn't believe it. i don't deserve it or her. but i have it, by some miraculous occurrence, i have it. and i am thankful and grateful for it.
also haven't done any carving action in a week. i kinda am shocked that it's been about 7 days since i was gripping anything sharp. and i'm okay with that for now.
No comments:
Post a Comment