"Not Good Enough!"

So my head was messing with me yesterday.  I woke up and to sum it all up, I had a case of the "not good enoughs."  I woke up and started writing on my Step 3, and didn't feel like I was writing enough, so I closed the books and said "Fuck this."  Next, I tried to sketch/draw a little bit, but I hated the finished product so I put that down and said "fuck this."  Then, I tried to sit down and read for a while but felt like I wasn't reading enough, got frustrated, said "Fuck this" and put the book down.  I was getting so frustrated with everything and myself.  I considered calling my Sponsor but my head lied to me and told me not to bother him because he had his own stuff going on and probably would be bothered if I called him (this was not true, but we'll come back to this later).  So I stopped and utilized something I learned from the program, "The Reset."  When you're having a bad moment (morning, afternoon, etc.) you don't have to let it turn into a whole bad day, you can reset and start the day over again at any time.  So I laid down for a nap to reset, woke up 3 hours later and was completely refreshed and had new lenses on my focus of the day.  My writing was okay, my drawing wasn't that bad, and I've been reading like crazy and acknowledged that, so I picked up the book again and now I'm almost finished with it.
I also ended up going to my Home Group meeting last night at 6 and met up with my Sponsor there and told him everything that had gone on and he told me that I SHOULD'VE called him and that I can always try to call him and that he's always available for me and that when my head told me to not bother him, that was my disease fucking with me.
So, in summary, my head made me a little crazy yesterday and, even though I did listen to it by not calling my sponsor, I still utilized tools I've learned from the program and got through it.