The Jig is Up!

Well, the jig is up.  Apparently more people read this than I thought because my sponsor caught wind of what I've posted on here and this morning he called me out on it.  I didn't try to cover lies with more lies though and I got honest with him and admitted that what he read on here was true:  that today is day 3, I'm going through withdrawals, and that I've been using for the past 2 months.  I had barely uttered these words of truth when he then said he'd be by shortly to pick me up so we could go to a meeting at noon.  I was still in bed in my underwear, had not had any coffee yet or my morning cigarette, and was still pretty out of it after having slept close to 14 hours (meth detox involves LOTS of sleeping) so I was still pretty cranky and bitchy having to get out of bed and get it together in a hurry.  But Shaun showed up and off to the meeting we went, and overall, I'm glad I went and that he pushed me out of my comfort zone as briskly as he did because if he hadn't I doubt I would've made it to a meeting today at all.
After the meeting I went with him to take his dogs to the groomer's and then he treated me to Starbucks and while we were sitting outside with our coffee (and my cigarette) I filled him in on what's really been going on with me for the last 2 months and what the truth is.  I gotta say this though:  after telling the truth and admitting what I've been up to, I was expecting him to be angry with me, to reject me, to "fire me," or something along those lines.  Instead I was reminded of the principles of this program because instead of rejection and ostracism, I got understanding, empathy, identification, acceptance, and forgiveness.  So the cat's out of the bag; I don't have to worry about which lie to nurture or who is going to find out what anymore...I can just be me.  What a fucking relief!  I feel like my whole life just took one huge collective sigh of relief after holding its breath for the past 2 months.