Monday, November 24, 2014

Flying Solo After All?

I won't go into too much detail regarding the current situation as some of the details need not be discussed, but in a nutshell, I feel like I just got abandoned; that dick was a higher priority than hanging out with a friend.  Don't get me wrong:  I fully endorse, support, and approve of getting dick.  But earlier this evening, in response to a question posed regarding what would happen in a situation similar to exactly what did happen, I responded with my statement that I would never just ditch the person in question if the possibility of a trick came up; that once I committed to hanging out with you, that's what I was doing and that I wouldn't just bail as soon as a hot trick popped up.

But a hot trick apparently did pop up for my friend and I got left in the dust and a lot of feelings of rejection got stirred up and I feel like I'm just some sideshow prop that my friend can come back to whenever it's convenient for him.  Am I being a cock block?  I can't tell...it's just so frustrating after having said that I WOULDN'T do exactly what he did just a few hours earlier in the evening, then he turns around and does that exact thing.

So yet again, here I am...flying solo :-/

On the plus side:  the time alone was utilized very efficiently because with that time I was able to create and complete my very first comprehensive budget/financial report of what my expenses/funds/savings look like right now.  Now armed with this information hopefully I can get the parental unit to ease up on her control of MY money.

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