Vision Trouble

Yesterday I met with the man I chose to be my new sponsor in the wake of Bruce's death.  While we sat outside Starbucks we went over a brief recap of the tornado that's been my life the last few months.  We also went over my understanding of the first 2 steps as well as what type of program I'm working in the sense of what actions I take and what behaviors I'm engaging in every day.

After reviewing my understanding of acceptance, powerlessness, honesty, open-mindedness, willingness to do the next right thing, having faith, trust, and the courage it takes to look at oneself and the courage to face the emotions and feelings that comes along with the process, he said "you're doin' a good job man, you're doing a lot more than most do and it sounds like you really get it."

At that point I just went blank and asked in complete confusion "Really?"  What's more, is lately I've been having more and more people saying that they were proud of me, which leaves me in utter disbelief.  Personally, I feel like I'm either not doing enough, or I'm lacking in certain areas, or I'm not as far along in my growth process as everyone is saying I am. 

But taking into account all this recent feedback, I'm starting to wonder if maybe what I see isn't the same as what everyone else is seeing and that maybe the lense at which I'm looking at myself through is smudged and tainted with all the self-hate, self-loathing, lack of any self-worth issues that I struggle with.
 Maybe I am doing a lot better than I think I am. 
Maybe I don't suck at life as much as I think I do. 
I'm not quite sure what to think.  But what I do know is I need to rely on the feedback I get from those I trust around me and not form my opinions of reality based solely on my thinking and viewpoint, because when I'm relying solely on myself and my self-will and the skewed-reality thoughts that come out of my head, I can form opinions and viewpoints of myself that are so off kilter and false that I end up self-sabotaging myself and my growth process completely stops.  At least I've learned THAT much:  my own thoughts can't be trusted; my perception of reality is not accurate; and I need guidance and support.