no reply

it's monday, and there was never any response.  i knew that was a chance i had to take.  maybe it was too soon.

maybe he's busy.  maybe he's angry.  maybe he hates me absolutely.  maybe he took one look at the sender and hit delete.  maybe he's moved on. 

this could go on for days if i let it.  i can't get caught up in the story of my own "what if" disease.  i have to just stick to the facts.  and the facts are what i know.  and what i know is i miss him.  and i still love him, and i'll wait however long i need to and make whatever kind of amends i have to make if that's what it takes.