"take home something with you each time"

"and that's all i have for now..............

and that has to be enough."

that's been running through my mind all day.  i know it [everything of me right now] has to be enough...but i still feel like i didn't make the qualifications to be successful at...well...anything?  i'll admit i feel that i am, possibly, in a better state/frame of mind than i was last week.  however, i can confidently say that while i may not be bad (or in last week's case, as ready to permanently throw in the towel as i was), i am still, definitely, not great or even good for that matter. 

but i guess "that has to be enough?"  :-\

i hope he's doing better.  i think that's been one of the harder parts of this whole ordeal:  knowing how much horror and heartache and pain i caused him.  so...hopefully he's faring better and smiling and happy.